I don’t like deceit. Therefore, I don’t like the spiritual community.
This might break a few hearts, but I’d rather be honest.
And yes, I’m talking about every spiritual community. Not just the western ones. Eastern and from everywhere, old and new, the whole bunch. One must be okay with tricksters in order to be into spirituality. I’m not, and I never will be.
Feelings aside (sorry in advance), I must say it: truth doesn’t need to be defended.
It doesn’t! Ever!
Truth finds a way.
What needs to be defended, what needs to be “wrapped” into an attractive package to be sold to someone, isn’t truth. It’s deceit.
I’m not even judging it as “bad”, per se. Sometimes we need to deceive. Dogs dislike taking pills, so what do we do? We give it inside a piece of chicken or meat. We “sneak” it past the dog’s detection system.
But a dog is a dog. Human beings aren’t dogs. Humans have verbal language for the very purpose of explaining to each other why “pills” (if you will) are needed. Past a certain age, it becomes possible. Or do you see adults having to be deceitfully given pills by their doctors? Usually not. In a metaphorical sense, this works too: sometimes, we need to “sneak” certain messages past people’s defenses. But this should be a last-ditch resort, NOT the go-to strategy. My issue with the spiritual community is they use deceit as a go-to communication strategy even when the message is perfectly fine and there was NO NEED for any of that bullshit. But they do it, they love the bullshit, they resort to deceit before even testing whether or not what they have to teach would be accepted without a problem by whoever is listening.
It’s like assuming people won’t trust you, before you test the possibility. I don’t like that mentality. Sorry. I never will.
Sometimes, people read my stuff and judge it as too binary — it’s funny, because I consider myself a Buddhist (well, I don’t know anymore, I’m disappointed with spirituality, but for the sake of labels, I guess I’m a Buddhist). Nuance is the bread-and-butter of my belief system! And yet, people think I engage in black-and-white thinking. Why is that? Well, I have a theory: I think they do that, because they enjoy deceiving themselves. They look at my “barrier” against manipulation and say “oh, it’s too impenetrable! That must mean Lucy is too radical! That must in turn mean she thinks in black-and-white terms”. No, guys. I don’t. I see the nuance. It’s just that I also see the utility of a message, and I’m often like “okay, this checks, but it’s still not useful for me, so I’ll say no to it”. I do it when I don’t like the message, no matter how nuanced. For example, I don’t like manipulation, no matter how mild it may be at times (in contrast to blatant and forceful manipulation) — so, there’s nuance, there are levels to the thing, but regardless, the thing itself isn’t my cup of tea. Let me dislike it for god’s sake. I know what I want, and I also know what I don’t want. And once I make up my mind, nobody (NOBODY! AT ALL AT ALL) can “sneak in” past my judgement and sway me to their side. In fact, I find that extremely condescending. Why not just say “hey, here’s a new perspective for you — [insert disagreement here]”? Why dress it up as “Science” when it’s not, or “truth” when it’s just one belief, or “the one and only definition” when it’s only one entry in a much bigger list of options you’ll find when you open the dictionary? Ya know? It’s exhausting to deal with that; To debunk that. It erodes trust, too. How am I supposed to trust people who only speak the language of “sneaking things past” me? Directness is a myth at this stage, isn’t it, never heard of her.
I like it when people are transparent, you know? I like directness; showing me their cards, with no extra ones up their sleeves. But some people (notoriously, a majority of which are in the spiritual community) do not. They’d rather deceive. They’d rather be indirect and manipulative. They don’t even speak the language of directness. I stopped trying, honestly. I feel utterly alone in this community being direct. Only atheists relate to my way of thinking. That’s why I’m friends with a bunch of them.
I’ve tried telling spiritual people “well, this is where you’re trying to sway me underhandedly, and now I hate you for it so I’ll close my ears to you”. What do they hear? “Oh, she’s resistant”. Well, my dear, no, it isn’t the message ITSELF I dislike. It’s your goddamn annoying communication style. I wouldn’t be “resistant” if you were direct. If you showed me your cards. But you refuse to. And when you refuse to, I lose my respect. I think “well, why is that? Why try to deceive? I thought the message was good? Don’t we all promptly accept good things? So maybe it isn’t fully good, if it needs to be sneaked into me instead of trying the front door”. It’s like you’re addicted to beating around the bush, and you don’t even remember how to say anything to me without passing it through a zillion disguises and sets of smoke-and-mirrors first. Fuck sake. Anyway… in order to avoid feeling defeated, people just disqualify me by saying I use black-and-white thinking. Okay, whatever. I’m not gonna pull away this mask because sometimes it leaves people bleeding too much. So, by all means, go on, deceive yourselves about me. Do what you must to stay comfortable and happy. That’s none of my business. Nobody is obligated to be ready to receive an oracle. I understand that.
But for god’s sake, I wish spiritual people would just stop trying to outsmart me. They’re not gonna. I have privileged access to information that, if you had too, you would understand exactly how I feel.
The more people try to fool me, the less I like or respect them.
Hence, as I said, I dislike the spiritual community. Maybe I’m doing a bit of a spiritual thing — the oracle — but I can’t even visualise myself having a good relationship with other spiritual people. They’re okay with being tricksters every once in a while, and I’m not. I’m as direct as humanly possible. And I won’t apologise for it.
I was planning other articles for this week and next, but I felt the need for writing and publishing today’s article unannounced… Given recent interactions. I think it’s fair to publish it, since I’ve seen new followers come in, and I’d like them to know exactly what to expect from me.
Anyway, see you all soon.
