To whom it may concern,
We both know who you are, but as long as you stay in the shadows, so will I.
This article is… Not an article. It’s a message for a specific person. If you don’t know what’s going on, it’s not for you (in that case, please skip, or enjoy it for what it is. You do you. I’m not unseeing what I saw, so if a lot of followers have to put up with this message’s existence, so be it). I very rarely grant anyone the privilege of my attention (or a tiny bit of it, as is the case here), but when family is concerned, perhaps I have to. It’s ONE thing to witness obsessive behaviour in a stranger. It’s ANOTHER ENTIRELY when it’s someone a lot closer, someone who should fucking know better.
Don’t be fooled, though, child. This won’t happen twice. It won’t need to. If you think I am your “final boss”, oh boy, are you mistaken! I’m here to tell you nicely. What you will experience if you don’t listen to me is in someone else’s hands entirely, and it won’t be so nice. Write my words down, because once your glass ceiling is shattered, you will be lamenting. That’s entirely avoidable, but it only depends on how far you’re willing to go to protect your pride. Yeah, I’m sorry, I don’t care how immature you are. You had plenty of time to grow up and mature. If you wasted it… Whose problem is it? Huh? Whose fucking problem is it?
Exactly.
You think you took the higher road. You think I’m foolish and cowardly.
Projections are a very funny thing. Especially when you think you have the high horse, and that delusion couldn’t be further from the truth.
Dear… If you’re in doubt, allow me to put things into perspective for you. Who is living a peaceful life now? Tell me. Who? Is it you? Oh, are you sure about that? Would you like to rethink your answer maybe, perhaps phone a friend, like they do in Who Wants to Be a Millionaire?
Jokes aside, take a good look at your life now. Do you have inner peace? Or are you permanently en guarde just in case she calls out of a sudden? Do you call that “peace”? If so, the delusion is worse than I thought.
This is not a competition, for the record. We could both be in peace… IF you acted your age instead of holding on to this teenage immaturity of yours, and took the same decision I took. But you chose to put on a facade of “tough person” instead. You chose to pretend like you can handle her bullshit, oh yes, no biggie, staying in contact will let everybody know how strong you are and how unbothered you feel.
I don’t wanna know how many people you’re fooling with it and will never find out the truth. That’s irrelevant. The important bit of information is: you’re fooling people. See how this is not about them? This is about YOUR decision.
Think long and hard about that. You’re fooling people. Do you think that’s something to be proud of? Oh, really? Let’s imagine a thing here, real quick: imagine you’re 105. You’re almost dying, in a bed. Got it? Okay. So, picture that scenario. Now… Imagine you held on to your resolution, to keep up your defenses, to prioritise your image that others are seeing, instead of your REAL well-being… For all these decades. And now, all you have left, time-wise, is a couple of days. Would you be proud of your choice? Would you look back at the past and be happy? Or… maybe… just maybe… you would regret it and wish you had a little more courage in life?
You only live once.
Reincarnation or not, we only live once. This life, right here, right now, with this face and body, with these relationships, in these places we’re experiencing… We only live once. But never mind that, you don’t believe “that woo woo bullshit” anyway. So this should hit even harder for you: there won’t be a second try. And you’re wasting the one and only shot you have at life, trying to “win” on every occasion, and in the process, giving up on real freedom…
…Just because, in case you choose to let it go and walk away from her without closure, “people will be talking”.
Oh. Yes, of course. People will be talking. Others hold so much power over you, don’t they? What they think and talk about is all that matters. Ironic, considering you thought you were strong.
Yes, this is a provocation. If this was in person, I’d be shaking your shoulders and looking straight into your eyes.
Wake. Up.
Wake up before it’s too late.
We can try to teach others to be better, but we aren’t their babysitters. There comes a point where giving up is NOT unreasonable. I wish this referred to her only. Oh, how I wish that… But unfortunately, it also applies to you. This is why I said in the beginning: I’m only warning you once. Don’t say I didn’t try.
I won’t hide from you. I won’t cut you off. You don’t pose a threat to me — no, not even if you actually try to be a threat (now that I was harsh, and you might receive this message badly). You don’t know who backs me up, and trust me, you don’t wanna find out.
If you don’t understand why I’m writing this, one day you will. So, by all means, keep it in a safe place.
I said my piece. Good luck now. Best wishes xoxo
